Month: April 2015

be my valentine (ihatepoetry)

im becoming the girl in the bed.
the one with too much time and
too much food on her hands.
i’m perpetually loafing.
soured dough.

house bound while you roam the world.
No dust under your feet.
You lucky shit.

Your star is getting brighter,
while my sheets get mustier
and dustier and crustier
and loose.

im jealous and inspired.
so thirsty. oh, so thirsty.
i need to drain you.

come home, my love,
leave your happiness by the roadside.
wallow with me.
in this lonely place.
become a lump beneath the duvet.
my pale skeleton.

miss the boat.
get off the plane.
come home.  now.
do it now.  now.
i need you. now.

before you sparkle too bright.
before you peak.
drink from my deflated
and emptied bosom.
shrivel up with me.
Lose your way.
Depress your senses.
Disappear with me.

Cheese balls and Netflix.  Dirty pits and missed phone calls.  Well baby checks and 5150.  The future awaits you. As do I.  With baited breath and all of my love.  Every last suffocating, life draining, inspiration waining kiss…You lucky shit.

night night (ihatepoetry)

you’d think with night falling all around me that I’d draw the shutters and hide away…

but NOW is when i feel most alive. awakened. and unbroken.

this is my time.  me time.  night time.

HEAR the empty.  be the stillness.  own the quiet.

i am invisible so i am less vulnerable. Isn’t that right?

the shadows are my security. the darkness, my best friend.

THIS is just how it is right now.  not how it ought to be.

you are just who you are right now.  not who i need you to be.

it’s today.  tomorrow.  and yesterday.  inside the night.

and i’m a poet or a priestess or a goddess or just right

inside. outside.

up top. down below.

sunset to sunrise.

or something in between.

nightfall.

dusk.

darkness.

Lost in blue eyes until the sunrise …

i love you and i miss you

i want you and i need you

you’ve forgotten me and i’m lost now.

under the moon.  beneath the stars.

naked.  without words for you. i’m faking it.

Again.  And you’re not who i need you to be.

right now.